I’ve become convinced I can win the lottery :-).

My obsession started at the beginning of March. I had heard on the news that the MegaMillions jackpot was at a record $390 million. I was visiting my father in Georgia, and he asked me what I would do if I won that much money. I’m sure his question was just an innocent way to talk about something for a little bit. I think I may have taken the question a little too seriously :-).

I started to really think about what I would do with that much money. What would I really do. It dominated my thoughts for quite a while.

Then I remembered talking to my friend about the lottery, a few months prior to my Georgia visit. We were talking about how reality is not some machine, and that modern science doesn’t give it enough credit. I had told him about a news article I had read, where a lady won the lottery twice. I tried to get my friend to understand that this simply should NEVER REALISTICALLY HAPPEN - according to statistics and probability. The fact that it has happened is evidence that things aren’t what they seem.

Thinking about the lady winning twice, and thinking about the question of what I would do with $390 million dollars… I became convinced that if someone else can do it - then so can I. I started playing MegaMillions, and made a goal to figure out how others have won, and how I could win myself.

All this thinking led me to a realization. I realized that randomness doesn’t truly exist. I may post on this idea later, but the general idea is that nothing in this world is truly random. Where the modern worlds sees random occurrences, what they’re really witnessing is a subconscious choice - but they can’t figure it out, so they just simplify it to this idea of “random”, so they don’t have to think about it.

Once I had made this realization, the next time I played the lottery I won. $3 to be exact (odds 1 in 141). I was pretty happy, and I kept thinking about this idea of randomness - and won again the next drawing. $7 this time (odds 1 in 306). Back to back, the “odds” of winning twice is 1 in 43,146. You may disagree with the math, but the fact still remains that I had only played 5 tickets at that point, and 2 of them had been winners.

That sealed the deal.

Since then, I’ve continued to play the lottery, but haven’t won yet. I’m convinced that I can win. If someone can win twice, I can win once. And if I can win once, I can win a hundred times.

It’s very interesting to me. I’ll post on it later :-).