Alriightttyyy!

Enough of all this bullshit - it’s time to resume training!  I’ve resumed my OBE and EM training, and it feels good to do something :-).  I’ve decided to start holding weekly practice sessions with the geiger counter as well.  Every Sunday, at 7pm EST, feel free to meet in the geiger counter chat room, and we can mess around collectively with the geiger counter.  I’ve added a timer to the page that counts down to the next practice session, so you know exactly when it will happen.

So, see you Sunday!

I feel like such a sucker for thinking so much about the topic of winning the lottery, but I can’t help it - it embodies everything I care about, in a poetic sense.  Perhaps I just use it as an excuse to think about hard topics? ;-P

I was laying in bed, throwing my orange ball up at the ceiling, debating with myself about the morality of winning the lottery.  If I could find a way to win, would it be cheating?  What overall goal am I aiming for, and is this goal moral?  Am I just doing it because I want to escape the rat race of living paycheck to paycheck?  Or is there an honest and healthy reason for my obsession?

I can’t lie to myself… I know that part of me desperately wants to transcend society’s dependence on money.  By winning the jackpot, I will essentially free myself from years of burden and conformity required by society in order to pay for the necessities of life.  But free myself to what end?  What would I do with my time, once liberated?

There is a divine balance to reality.  Any push away from truth creates a perfectly calculated, equal and opposite push towards truth.

If my theories are correct, then society has made a gamble against truth.  Society has taken the stance of “random things happen, and sometimes it’s just coincidence”.  The lottery embodies this assumption by society.

But if the assumption is false - if things happen for a reason, and there is an underlying meaning in everything - then I should be able to win the lottery.  Not for the money - but for the point of demonstrating the falseness of society’s assumption.  After all, who am I to say that I am right, and society is wrong?  What evidence have I presented society with?  As far as society is concerned, I’m just a peebrain with a blog :-).

So, my goal is to demonstrate to society that the assumption of “random things happen, and sometimes it’s just coincidence” is false.  Now maybe I am wrong - maybe society’s assumption is correct.  In which case, I won’t win the lottery, and my failed demonstration can be used as evidence that some things are random.  Of course, that’s not the outcome I believe will come to pass :-), but reality will be the judge of that.

Now - I believe that this goal is moral.  My goal is rooted in revealing truth - whether I’m correct or incorrect.  However, does this answer the question of what to do with the money, once I win?

Yes, I believe it does.  Now that I’ve defined my goal, and my goal is moral, I can more easily see what follows.

After demonstrating that society’s assumption is false, I must spend the money on discovering the truth.  It’s the only moral way to balance out the situation.  I can’t take advantage of society’s ignorance, then disappear with the money to lead a selfish life of abundance.  Once I win, it will become my responsibility to spend the money on restoring balance.

So, let it be known:

If I win the jackpot, then I will use the money to research the topic of both how society allows itself to become deceived, and what the truth actually is.  I will create an organization in order to accomplish this research.  I am announcing this because, in the event that I win, I want to ensure that everyone keeps me honest.  I am human, and I will definitely be tempted to just pack up my bags, and live a peaceful private life.  However, since I know that using society’s ignorance for my own personal gain is immoral, I want to declare my intention publicly.  I will do everything in my power to remain faithful to my word - but, if I start to flake out, then I hope those reading this proclamation will remind me of my obligation.

Oh boy :-P.

I continue to have a strong belief that I can win the lottery… but I have yet to hit the jackpot (obviously).  It’s quite the enigma.

A lot of times I question, “Perhaps I’m asking something from myself that is legitimately impossible?” - in which case, I’m putting myself under stress for no good reason.  But then I quickly remember my successes.

I have broken the mathematical odds… no matter which way you cut it.  And so have others.  But for the life of me, I can’t figure out what triggers it.

I have exhausted all the “normal” techniques that come to mind, with close to zero results: precognition, trancing, remote viewing, micro-psychokinesis, intention manifestation, “just do it”, asking my subconscious directly, asking dream characters, etc.  This has led me to try more crazy techniques.  As a result, I have found two techniques that consistently produce results (and also sound even more insane than the run-of-the-mill paranormal techniques):

The first technique is to ask my subconscious to list some “profound truths” - and in the middle of hearing these truths, ask for a number.  I believe this works because my subconscious has to “tune” into the truths, and while “tuned in”, I can ask for truths concerning the lottery.

The second technique is to video tape myself “praying” for the winning numbers.  Yes, this actually produces results for me.

And yes, I realize how bat-shit insane both techniques are (especially the second one, which has actually been more effective than the first).  But… those are the two that have worked out of all my ideas thus far.

Perhaps I’ve taken this idea of winning the lottery too far?  Naaa :-P.  Not yet :-).

I’ve yet to reconcile the seemingly contradicting experiences I’ve had.  Until I can come up with a unified theory, I must keep experimenting.  Besides, it’s fun :-).

Back in March, I posted about a preacher in Ohio claiming to be one of the end time prophets that the Book of Revelations talks about.

Well, our friendly prophet has informed us that a nuclear weapon will go off in the United States, some time between June 1st, and July 16th.

I guess my big question is: if a nuclear weapon actually does go off in the U.S., will you be convinced this guy is legit?

In his favor, he is giving a very specific time frame, and a very large event.

Against his favor, some of his past predictions haven’t come true exactly as he has stated (nor exactly as the Bible has stated).  But there is a little bit of wiggle room if he really wanted to make the case.

Either way… this prediction is pretty substantial.  And we don’t have to wait too long to see if it’s true or not!  Place your bets.

Being human, we like to divide reality into different sections.

There is day time, and night time.  There is the weekday, and the weekend.  There are people with lighter skin, and darker skin.  This mentality of cutting reality in half has a name - it’s called: duality.

Dualistic thoughts can be very useful.  After all, if I want to drive from Maryland to Georgia, it’s good to know whether I’m on the correct road, or incorrect road.  However, a lot of times we use dualistic thinking incorrectly, or trust in it too much.

The problem is this: There is one, and only one, reality.  Thinking dualistically is in direct contradiction to that ultimate truth.  Is it ever really a weekend?  No.  It’s just the continuous stream of time.  If you go to mars, are there weekends there?  No.  Therefore, a “weekend” is not something that is a part of reality.  It’s just a human thing we do - we divide reality arbitrarily, and label the divisions.

How does this affect us?  Well, there’s a popular thought that is dualistic in nature, that I talk a lot about: “If you want to become good at psychic abilities, you must practice.”

Hiding behind this thought is a partitioned reality.  Now, that doesn’t mean the thought is useless.  Clearly there is some truth in there, because people who practice psychic abilities do become more proficient.  But ultimately - the thought has some inherent falsehoods because it’s reliant on cutting reality in half.

There are a lot of cuts the thought makes, but the one I want to discuss is that it divides experiences into either natural or supernatural.  Encoded inside of “practice psychic abilities to get better” is the thought that your current experiences are mostly “natural”, and if you want more “supernatural” ones, you need to practice.

This is the falsehood inside the thought.  An experience is neither natural or supernatural.  An experience is just an experience!  Reality doesn’t go around, observing events, judging whether something was bizarre or not - humans do!  Reality doesn’t give two shits, and just does what it does.  This division between everyday life, and some awesome and profound paranormal experience, only exists in our mind.

Usually dualism isn’t too bad.  In some cases it can be very dangerous, like racism, religion, or selfishness.  Dualism serves the purpose of helping us understand things in human terms.  But it’s vitally important to remember that when we are thinking dualistically, it’s only out of the necessity to break things down to our level, and NEVER a reflection of how reality actually functions.  Reality isn’t dualistic.  Reality is one.

Only use dualistic thinking in order to serve yourself.  Never enforce your arbitrary divisions on reality itself.  Reality doesn’t care about whether YOU think an experience is natural or supernatural.  So get over it, and start seeing the beautiful in the ugly, the love in the fear, and the supernatural in the natural.

I have a secret to tell everyone about psionics… others have figured it out already, but it’s time I let everyone know officially…

All techniques are bullshit.

You don’t need articles, you don’t need guidance, you don’t need answers, and you don’t need belief systems.  The only thing you need to do is look inwardly.

Now maybe that sounds like I’m the one bullshitting at this point :-).  Maybe I am! ;-D

Emotion is the name of the game.  Emotion is the currency of will power.  The only door that needs to be opened is understanding what you feel and why.  And the only way to do that is to look inside yourself.

The only benefit I can provide to you is simply putting into words what you already instinctively feel.  And maybe (if I’m lucky) I can also give you clues as to why you feel the way you do.  But ultimately - you don’t need me to do so.  It’s all inside yourself right now, at this very moment.

If I had malicious intent, I could play your emotions, and convince you that you need me.  This is what the vast majority of society does.  We go around, deceiving others into thinking they need us, and allow ourselves to be deceived into thinking we need something external to ourselves.  But ultimately, that’s not true.  There is nothing external to ourselves that we need.

Now some nit-pickers might argue that we need food, or oxygen.  No, we don’t.  Our bodies need food and oxygen.   Or maybe you’ll argue that we need love and attention.  We certainly need love - but must we look externally for love?  And we certainly don’t need attention - that’s your ego talking.  Be careful with how you define those words too - they’re certainly vague enough to cause confusion :-P.

The reason that all psionic techniques are bullshit is because the only purpose the techniques serve is to manipulate your emotions, in order to generate will power.  The techniques are 100% dependent on how well they can stir up emotions in your current belief system.  Techniques don’t produce results.  Emotions do.

Therefore, to become good at psionics, you must understand both what you are feeling, and why.  The better you understand yourself, the better you can recruit your emotions to serve your goals.  The only way to accomplish this is to dig inwardly.

Somewhere, under the layers of self-delusion and confusion, there exists a God-like being.  Stop searching outside of yourself.  Stop feeding your ego.  Will you passionately dig for truth, or will you be yet another victim of mind?  This is the greatest secret of psionics.

Last week I removed the Geiger Game from the site, in order to collect a weeks worth of “uninfluenced” data. Here is my analysis:

3 May 2008, 00:00 EDT to 10 May 2008, 00:00 EDT

Measurements: 67141
Maximum CPM: 34 on 05/08/08 05:43:33 EDT
Average CPM: 11.575
Median CPM: 11
Mode CPM: 11 (7985 occurrences)

Probability and statistics are a bitch. It’s a fact of life :-P. I plan on writing a tutorial and how to interpret these numbers correctly, but until then, I just wanted to post the table above, and the raw data for others to analyze.

Graph:

Data: Geiger Counter Week-Long Data

The most annoying problem that holds us back from perceiving truth is the uncultivated mind.

First and foremost, let me say this: I do not claim ownership of any special truth, nor do I claim that I have realized anything amazing or awesome.  I am not talking about truth.  I’m talking about our ability to perceive truth.

The term “cultivating” is chosen because that’s exactly what needs to be done.  You cultivate land to prepare it to grow crops.  Uncultivated land has overgrown weeds everywhere.  In order to make it useful, you must remove the weeds, ripping them out by their roots, and tend to the land to ensure it has rich soil.

The exact same is true of the mind.  Self-deception and ego are the weeds of an uncultivated mind.  It takes a lot of effort in order to remove the roots of these illusions, but in the end, you are better prepared to perceive truth.

A lot people don’t see their mind as something that needs that sort of investment.  A lot of times we are distracted from our internal world by the shiny external world.  It’s a shame that our society doesn’t put more emphasis on developing healthy thought patterns, and investigating the ways our egos fool us.  Instead, sometimes it seems as though society rewards inflated egos, and encourages self-deception.

Society isn’t reality though.

I would like to think that those reading this blog entry are here for the same reason I am: through pursuit of truth.  My number one priority is not to be rich, nor create a family, nor be a rock star.  Not that those things wouldn’t be great :-).  But my number one priority is to perceive truth.

The ego of one person can destroy a nation.  The ego of a handful of men and women can destroy the world.  That’s pretty powerful stuff.  I feel bad for the race that has auctioned it’s future off to the ego of man… oh wait :-P.

There are two struggles I constantly fight.  One is against my own ego and self-delusion, which I passionately fight my hardest to overcome.  The second is the egos and self-delusions of others, which I am slowly becoming more and more tired of fighting against.

I don’t have any divine truth to convey.  I can’t give you any answers.  The best I can do is point you in - what I feel is - the correct direction.  Cultivate your mind.  Value truth over existance.

Twenty-five years on this earth.  So far so good :-).

Hey everyone!

Per request of SheepKing, I decided to make game based on influencing my Geiger Counter!

Check it out, and let me know if you have any problems or suggestions.

Hidden behind the idea of “practice” and “success” is this idea of separation.

If we want to become a great baseball player, then we clearly need practice. Becoming a great baseball player takes some natural talent, but like other skills, it mostly takes dedication, training, and repetition.

A lot of times I will equate psychic abilities to other normal skills. I might say that, just like becoming a great baseball player, if you want to learn to be psychic, then you need to practice it as if it were any other skill. Don’t treat it special. Don’t think of it as something mystical. Treat it as if you were learning anything else.

I like this method of instruction for a lot of reasons. The main reason I like to equate psychic abilities to other normal skills is because it breaks down the association between psychic abilities and religious beliefs.

It would be silly of me to be religious about playing baseball. While some great baseball players are certainly religious, and some might even claim that their religion has helped them become so great - one thing is certain: You don’t learn to hit homeruns by closing your eyes and believing in some mystical force. You hit homeruns by practicing. Maybe religion plays a role in motivation, but the actual skill needs to be developed, and the only way to do that is to practice.

Likewise, when I talk about psychic abilities being like any other skill, my real goal is to break this mental association between psychic abilities and personal religious beliefs. I might instruct someone to treat psychic abilities like any other skill, but what I’m really instructing them to do is to drop their insistence of explaining something unknown using religious ideas.

There is a slight problem with this though. Psychic abilities aren’t like other normal skills.

Normal skills need to be learned. The skill is external to yourself, and through training and practice, you slowly learn to perform the task correctly. The information on how to perform the task is external to yourself. Someone else created the game “baseball”. You must learn what they created. The information is inherently external.

Psychic abilities are not external. Psychic abilities are inherently internal. This is where the analogy breaks down. At this point, psychic abilities are not like any other skill. They are not something created by someone else, that we must learn the rules to. They are inside ourselves, at this very moment. We are psychic creatures - right now.

We are not all baseball-playing creatures right now. Some of us learn to play baseball, others don’t. But we are ALL psychic creatures.

It’s important to think of psychic abilities like any other skill in order to break our addiction of explaining unknown things using religion. However: once that addiction is correctly broken, we must deal with the reality of the situation. Psychic abilities are not like other skills. Normal skills are external to ourselves - something that we must engage with the world around us to learn. Psychic abilities are inherently internal.

Put another way: a newborn child, whose destined to be the greatest baseball player of all time, must at some point learn the rules of baseball. But a newborn child, whose destined to be the greatest psychic of all time, doesn’t have to learn anything. In fact, they may already BE the greatest psychic at the moment they are born.

So the next time you find yourself looking externally for answers on “how to be an awesome psychic”, remember that you are psychic right now - it is something inside of you at this very moment. The real question is at what depth do you understand your own true nature.