I feel like such a sucker for thinking so much about the topic of winning the lottery, but I can’t help it - it embodies everything I care about, in a poetic sense.  Perhaps I just use it as an excuse to think about hard topics? ;-P

I was laying in bed, throwing my orange ball up at the ceiling, debating with myself about the morality of winning the lottery.  If I could find a way to win, would it be cheating?  What overall goal am I aiming for, and is this goal moral?  Am I just doing it because I want to escape the rat race of living paycheck to paycheck?  Or is there an honest and healthy reason for my obsession?

I can’t lie to myself… I know that part of me desperately wants to transcend society’s dependence on money.  By winning the jackpot, I will essentially free myself from years of burden and conformity required by society in order to pay for the necessities of life.  But free myself to what end?  What would I do with my time, once liberated?

There is a divine balance to reality.  Any push away from truth creates a perfectly calculated, equal and opposite push towards truth.

If my theories are correct, then society has made a gamble against truth.  Society has taken the stance of “random things happen, and sometimes it’s just coincidence”.  The lottery embodies this assumption by society.

But if the assumption is false - if things happen for a reason, and there is an underlying meaning in everything - then I should be able to win the lottery.  Not for the money - but for the point of demonstrating the falseness of society’s assumption.  After all, who am I to say that I am right, and society is wrong?  What evidence have I presented society with?  As far as society is concerned, I’m just a peebrain with a blog :-).

So, my goal is to demonstrate to society that the assumption of “random things happen, and sometimes it’s just coincidence” is false.  Now maybe I am wrong - maybe society’s assumption is correct.  In which case, I won’t win the lottery, and my failed demonstration can be used as evidence that some things are random.  Of course, that’s not the outcome I believe will come to pass :-), but reality will be the judge of that.

Now - I believe that this goal is moral.  My goal is rooted in revealing truth - whether I’m correct or incorrect.  However, does this answer the question of what to do with the money, once I win?

Yes, I believe it does.  Now that I’ve defined my goal, and my goal is moral, I can more easily see what follows.

After demonstrating that society’s assumption is false, I must spend the money on discovering the truth.  It’s the only moral way to balance out the situation.  I can’t take advantage of society’s ignorance, then disappear with the money to lead a selfish life of abundance.  Once I win, it will become my responsibility to spend the money on restoring balance.

So, let it be known:

If I win the jackpot, then I will use the money to research the topic of both how society allows itself to become deceived, and what the truth actually is.  I will create an organization in order to accomplish this research.  I am announcing this because, in the event that I win, I want to ensure that everyone keeps me honest.  I am human, and I will definitely be tempted to just pack up my bags, and live a peaceful private life.  However, since I know that using society’s ignorance for my own personal gain is immoral, I want to declare my intention publicly.  I will do everything in my power to remain faithful to my word - but, if I start to flake out, then I hope those reading this proclamation will remind me of my obligation.

Oh boy :-P.

I continue to have a strong belief that I can win the lottery… but I have yet to hit the jackpot (obviously).  It’s quite the enigma.

A lot of times I question, “Perhaps I’m asking something from myself that is legitimately impossible?” - in which case, I’m putting myself under stress for no good reason.  But then I quickly remember my successes.

I have broken the mathematical odds… no matter which way you cut it.  And so have others.  But for the life of me, I can’t figure out what triggers it.

I have exhausted all the “normal” techniques that come to mind, with close to zero results: precognition, trancing, remote viewing, micro-psychokinesis, intention manifestation, “just do it”, asking my subconscious directly, asking dream characters, etc.  This has led me to try more crazy techniques.  As a result, I have found two techniques that consistently produce results (and also sound even more insane than the run-of-the-mill paranormal techniques):

The first technique is to ask my subconscious to list some “profound truths” - and in the middle of hearing these truths, ask for a number.  I believe this works because my subconscious has to “tune” into the truths, and while “tuned in”, I can ask for truths concerning the lottery.

The second technique is to video tape myself “praying” for the winning numbers.  Yes, this actually produces results for me.

And yes, I realize how bat-shit insane both techniques are (especially the second one, which has actually been more effective than the first).  But… those are the two that have worked out of all my ideas thus far.

Perhaps I’ve taken this idea of winning the lottery too far?  Naaa :-P.  Not yet :-).

I’ve yet to reconcile the seemingly contradicting experiences I’ve had.  Until I can come up with a unified theory, I must keep experimenting.  Besides, it’s fun :-).

Back in March, I posted about a preacher in Ohio claiming to be one of the end time prophets that the Book of Revelations talks about.

Well, our friendly prophet has informed us that a nuclear weapon will go off in the United States, some time between June 1st, and July 16th.

I guess my big question is: if a nuclear weapon actually does go off in the U.S., will you be convinced this guy is legit?

In his favor, he is giving a very specific time frame, and a very large event.

Against his favor, some of his past predictions haven’t come true exactly as he has stated (nor exactly as the Bible has stated).  But there is a little bit of wiggle room if he really wanted to make the case.

Either way… this prediction is pretty substantial.  And we don’t have to wait too long to see if it’s true or not!  Place your bets.