Oh goodie!
I took a month off from the lottery, due to the low jackpot amounts over the course of October. And it couldn’t have come at a better time - October has been especially stressful for me for many reasons. Changing jobs, changing shifts, changing apartments, and in general just changing my whole day-to-day activities. But that stress is finally equalizing itself, and life is starting to get back into a pattern, so I’m free to experiment with more fun ideas on reality. And it just so happens that the lottery jackpot has gotten within my acceptable range :-).
I played on Friday, but didn’t get any numbers, unfortunately. But that’s ok.
I’ve come to accept that I’ve failed over the summer (in terms of the lottery). If you remember… the lottery motivated me to start living my ideal life right now (instead of waiting around for a huge jackpot). That meant learning more about music, exercising and eating healthy, investing, and thinking about tough subjects like value, choice, faith, etc. So the lottery was a success in terms of motivation and life-stuff, but the act of winning was a failure. I didn’t win the jackpot.
However, I now think that it was better that way. I’ve come to reject the ideas of personal development and intention manifestation. And I think that it’s important to reject those ideas. They served me well for quite a while, but now it’s time to move on. Had I won the lottery in the summer, it would have validated the ideas of personal development and intention manifestation… which would have been incorrect, and messed with my head. So it’s better this way. Or at least - that’s how I currently rationalize my failure at the moment ;-).
Now that I have finished my rejection, I feel more free to win the lottery without all the intellectual baggage associated with it. During the summer, success of the lottery project was directly linked to correctness of my belief structure. That’s a wonderful way to inject emotional stress into a situation :-). However, now I feel like my success with the lottery is independent of my beliefs. So I can relax. I feel more playful and curious, as opposed to forceful and frustrated :-P.
We’ll see how long this lasts ;-P.
Either way, I want to do more experiments, and gather actual EVIDENCE to figure out how I can pull off this win. I most definitely believe it’s possible and plausible to win the jackpot. I stand by my rejection of modern statistics and probability, and my rejection of randomness. That’s sound logic right there - and the evidence supports it. Now I just need to keep reminding myself to focus on the evidence, and not any willy nilly emotion or philosophical idea that flutters across my creative mind.
Hurray :-).
October 30th, 2007 at 11:55 pm
Insanity: Doing the Same thing and Expecting Different Results
October 31st, 2007 at 3:37 am
though, at the same time, just because a person fails at throwing a ball through a hoop doesn’t mean it can’t be done. *shrugs*
October 31st, 2007 at 1:31 pm
I remember that your earlier successes are made by utilizing your connection with your subconscious and basically sussing the winner out with your keen senses. Since I don’t think I saw it fail you yet, maybe you can try that again.
November 1st, 2007 at 1:54 am
So does that mean you no longer believe in intention manifestation? (I’m so confused!) I thought the video of you winning some money on a lottery ticket helped prove its success.
November 1st, 2007 at 5:04 pm
Intention manifestation? False? I can’t quite get there. I’m sure it still applies, however it is more complicated than simply believing in something. There are external factors, something that requires a look at the whole system. From both the perspectives of reality in general, and the involved parties in making the intention become reality. With the lottery, it’s quite hard - there are tons of people involved - the people buying tickets, the managers, the people who sell the ticket, etc. You have to overcome all that. All of it. Somehow, your mind needs to find out/manipulate that system to get the right ticket. An extremely difficult task.
And just because it’s not working, you’re taking the risk of throwing away a good model that just needs a bit of refinement?
I think you just need some more people to help intend that you win. Alone, only a superhuman could accomplish this. It’s a wonder you’ve actually won something after all.
November 1st, 2007 at 10:45 pm
“No amount of experimentation can ever prove me right; a single experiment can prove me wrong.” ~Albert Einstein
November 1st, 2007 at 11:30 pm
ok thats it! i call a quote war!! …
not really..
November 1st, 2007 at 11:37 pm
oh and about that “ball” comment : it can be done, but only because something changed, if you throw a ball from the exact same place with the exact same throw you’ll fail.. unless you get lucky and the wind blows the right way..
but you have to change your pitch, and thats what i was getting at..
November 2nd, 2007 at 2:50 am
well, yes. that is true. but it’s pretty much impossible to throw exactly the same. especially if you only half know what you’re doing.
even if you’re trying to throw the same, there is always going to be some level of difference. and that may be what keeps it from going in. granted, there’s nothing wrong with going for a completely different approach. fact, it “may” serve you a lot better. but that doesn’t mean that the first way was wrong. or at least thats the way i see it. >.>
and i agree with ClearVision. i believe there are too many factors in the lottery that are beyond control (most notably every other person that wants to win)
November 2nd, 2007 at 3:09 pm
ClearVision forgets….Sean is super human! I am rather curious as to how a feat like this could be put into an exact workable method. Also ClearVision’s comment got me thinking, if there are so many important intention controlled factors in the lottery winning process, could it be that you would have to consider each one of them while trying to manifest a win? I mean, I know that there are many factors in even the smallest things that can be manifested by the method we have now, but could it be that other people’s strong feelings going into the same event could change this? That’s honestly the only way I can get my head around it.
November 3rd, 2007 at 8:07 pm
Don’t try to participate with the lottery for too long. It increases your chances to actually win, even if it’s a trivial gain.