So last Friday was a big day in my lottery world. The drawing meant a lot for two main reasons: 1. I had been meditating on schedule for 3 weeks, putting a total of 4 hours and 13 minutes towards intending on winning. 2. I was at $0 profit, so if I didn’t win anything, then I would officially be going into lottery-debt.
The results were: ZERO NUMBERS CORRECT. Oi!
So that pissed me off :-).
I was bummed out all of Friday, and I was thinking to myself how crazy I was for trying to win the lottery, and how silly the whole goal is in general. When I went to sleep on Friday, I was debating whether to keep the project going or not.
Saturday night I came to one important realization though. The project isn’t silly :-). I have won the lottery in the past, and my logic up until this point has been very strong. I have evidence to support my beliefs - I’m not just plucking things out of the air. I’ve beaten the odds. I’ve proven modern statistics wrong already. I accomplished 1 in 43,000 in the first 5 drawings. So I still have another 42,947 losses before the statistics balance out. Until that point arrives - I am beating the mathematical odds.
Sunday night I came to an even better realization. I realize that I’ve been taking this project too seriously. It used to be fun. I used to be excited to just play and see the results. But now when I check my numbers, I just prepare myself to be frustrated and pissed off. So I want to take the next two weeks as a break (while waiting for the jackpot to reach $45mil), and just try to relax and not be so serious.
Also, I think that intention manifestation - as presented by popular sources - is bullshit. I don’t think that those who teach the popular view of intention manifestation are purposely misleading people. I think that we saw some strange shit, and we were too quick to try and explain it. We wanted to show everyone the weird things we experienced, and when everyone else demanded an explanation, we felt obligated to give one. I now believe the correct response should have been: “I don’t know how it works, but it’s pretty weird, huh?” :-).
We always have to be careful with our minds. When we want to believe something we are in a very dangerous position of altering our perception in order to see what we want to see. The second we let our guard down is the second a false belief sneaks in under the guise of truth. Everything must be questioned. The jeweler doesn’t appraise rocks in bulk… each one is put under the magnifying glass, and judged individually. I feel as though intention manifestation is a box of rocks. It’s time to pull out every idea - one by one - and figure out exactly where the gemstones are hiding. And have fun in the process :-).
September 25th, 2007 at 5:18 pm
One thing I do know about intention manifestation from my own experiences is that it has everything to do with emotion. You probably got pissed because you were afraid to lose. If you have deep seated fear (no matter how small) of losing the lottery I’m guessing you will probably lose it and keep losing it. So, I think your intuition is right and you should try not to make it a big deal.
September 26th, 2007 at 3:42 pm
I just hate the lack of logic in this field.
Trying to produce an effect with our minds feels like trying to write a computer game with C++ with a compiler that would only say if the code is OK or not. No error numbers, no lines, no correction suggestions. Just YES or NO.
These things tend to work the same way too.. Either you get results you want, or you dont. And the feedback is good as nothing.
No wonder one gets frustrated?
Normally any problem solving or skill building woukld go like:
Plan -> Do -> Evaluate -> Fix -> Redo -> Evaluate -> Fix -> Redo
All we can do here is:
Plan -> Do -> Do -> Do -> Do -> Evaluate -> Do -> Do -> Get frustrated -> Quit.
October 2nd, 2007 at 4:17 pm
Me=Plan->Think->Replan->Think some more->Speculate on the outcome->Tell someone else->Let them do it.
Honestly, if intention manifestation is about emotion then I know quite a few people who would be unintentionally trying to manifest lottery wins. My grandma gets really pumped about it, though I don’t think she’s ever won anything.
Honestly what you’re trying to do kindof sounds like the old Bill Cosby joke where everyone at the black jack table is praying “Please let it be an ace, oh lord let it be an ace” or “God, I know your a good god, and if you could just make the next card a three…” and God just says “Bust everybody!” (of course in this case you would replace prayer with intention manifestation and god with the universe or reality)
October 2nd, 2007 at 4:26 pm
Looking at what I just typed I think your old deserving theory might have some basis Sean. I would think that the only variable distinguishing who gets something and who doesn’t, besides the degree in which someone wills the event (if it can be measured to a degree) would be on who needs it most. I don’t know, just me thinking out loud.